History: Fire, Sin and Drills
Swallowing a pill has never been so easy. We have pills for everything now. When my penis goes flaccid, I take a Viagra. When I’m too fat, Xenical. When I can’t concentrate, I hit the streets for Ritalin. Never before have there been so many amazing pills that promise so so much.
Historically, antidepressants relied more on superstition than pharmacology. Mental illness was generally seen as possession by an evil force. Brains infected by devils, souls seized by spirits were the general theories of diagnosis. Remedies included boring into the skull—trepanning—water immersion, sitting on a spinning stool, enemas and basic torture.
Empedocles, a Greek philosopher, was one of the first thinkers to try to track down a physical cause for depression. His theory, which in retrospect is aptly named, was based on the four elements. An imbalance between the elements leads to a physical/mental disturbance in the person. If you were having unpleasant dreams it meant that you had bile in the brain. Treatment: Drain the bile.
This was eventually rejected by Cicero, who posited: “What we call furor, they call melancholia, as if the reason were affected by only a black bile, and not disturbed often by a violent rage, or fear, or grief.” In essence that mental disturbance could manifest in physical symptoms.
With the decline of the Roman Empire and rise of Christianity, trust in logic and scientific advances abated. Explanations of many previously rational explanations for depression fell away for superstitions about devils and supernatural phenomena. The Dark Ages descended with the mentally ill falling into the hands of clerics, rather than doctors in the east and the west. Eventually by the 15th century, mental illness had been equated with sin. Treatment: burning at stake, isolation.
The first real text that addressed depression as a medical topic was published in 1621. The Anatomy of Melancholy by Robert Burton, who offered this advice: “Only take this for a corollary and conclusion, as thou tenderest thine own welfare in this, and all other melancholy, thy good health of body and mind, observe this short precept, give not way to solitariness and idleness. ‘Be not solitary, be not idle.’” Treatment: The evolution of the protestant work ethic allowed people to devote themselves to work. Work. Exercise. Keep the company of others. Perhaps chew on some St John’s wort.
Fast-forward two-hundred years. Freud, psychoanalysis. Brain chemistry—altering chemicals. The realisation that the mind and body were both causes of depression. Treatment: Psychotherapy, valium, lithium.
Up until the 20th century, treatment for mental illness was worse than hit and miss. It was generally just hit, and generally with either a drill or something flammable. That all changed when some crazy guys started experimenting with substances that could mess with the chemicals present in the human brain.
These green and purple pills
Apart from delicious delicious amphetamines and opiates, it wasn’t until the 1950s that targeted antidepressants started being used and even then the discovery was accidental. Two tuberculosis medicines—isoniazid and iproniazid—showed signs of improving mood. Serendipity is amazing.
From here flowed the discovery of tricyclic antidepressants (TCAs) [see sidebar].
The basic assumption behind TCAs and selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRI) antidepressants is that they stop the reuptake of certain chemicals back into your system so that you can reuse it over and over again. The most commonly prescribed SSRI is fluoxetine, better known by its brand name, Prozac.
Imagine your brain is a ship at a dock. No. Not full of seamen. The only way that a person can come off the boat is if they use a gangway. Nah, fuck it. Refer to diagram 1.
The top thing—as any first yeat psych student will tell you—is an axon terminal, the bottom part is the dendritic spine and the gap between is the synaptic cleft. The axon neurons are connected and use electrochemical signals and neurotransmitter chemicals—serotonin—to transmit impulses from one neuron to the next. Cool?
The dendritic spine receives the electrochemical signals and neurotransmitter chemical. Kinda like wireless internet. Brain chemistry is fun. Serotonin is one of the chemicals used in the transport of the impulses from the axon to the dendritic spine. It plays a role in modulating anger, aggression and other emotions.
When the brain wants to send a ‘happy signal’, it releases serotonin molecules from the axon. When one is received by the dendritic spine, the remaining serotonin molecules are reabsorbed by the axon. Fluoxetine and other SSRIs work by inhibiting the reabsorption of the serotonin, meaning that the signal continues to be received by the dendritic spine for longer. For other forms of antidepressants, the same holds true for norepinephrine and dopamine. Going back to that horrible ship metaphor: all the sailors are blind trying to get off, but every time one escapes the gangway is removed, and no more can cross until the gangway is replaced. When on antidepressants the gangway stays a bit longer.
SideFX
The minor side effects of fluoxetine include, but are not limited to:
- anhedonia (inability to experience pleasure)
- apathy
- nausea
- drowsiness or somnolence
- headache
- clenching of teeth
- extremely vivid and strange dreams
- dizziness
- changes in appetite
- weight loss/gain (measured by a change in bodyweight of 3.5 kg)
- may result in a double risk of bone fractures and injuries
- changes in sexual behaviour
- increased feelings of depression and anxiety
- tremors
- autonomic dysfunction including orthostatic hypotension, increased or reduced
- sweating
- akathisia (inability to sit still)
- liver or renal impairment
- thoughts of suicide
- increased risk of sunburn
It is also probable that if you’re on fluoxetine or another antidepressant you – will become addicted to it. Not the Trainspotting mold, but if you forget to take your pill for one day you’ll start feeling withdrawals. As Renton said: “Too ill to sleep. Too tired to stay awake, but the sickness is on its way. Sweat, chills, nausea. Pain and craving. A need like nothing else I’ve ever known will soon take hold of me. It’s on its way.”
Humans messing around with brain chemistry is like slamming a sledgehammer into a rugby field and then asking another person to find the dent by slotting in a sledgehammer-dent-sized jigsaw piece, blindfolded. Zapping electricity across the hole is optional.
As said before: hit and miss. Although the miss rate has decreased… or has it?
A New Zealand Herald story last year highlighted a literature review that indicated antidepressants don’t work. The study reviewed 47 clinical trials that focused on the six most popular antidepressants. Many professionals were quick to disregard them in all but the most extreme of cases. Pharmac’s director Dr Peter Moodie said the findings were interesting and an evaluation would take place, but “When we’re looking at questions about the efficacy of drugs, we should use a measured approach.”
The study sent many ripples out into the mental health community. Blogs vented against them. Doctors told patients to keep the faith. The Victoria Univerity Counselling Service put on a seminar talking about the issue.
One of the authors of the study, Professor Irving Kirsch, from the University of Hull, said “Given these results, there seems to be little reason to prescribe antidepressant medication to any but the most severely clinically depressed patients.” One Dr John Breeding—with his lovely grey beard—presents an amazing video on YouTube which explains the position adequately.
With the trenches drawn the only logical position seems in deadman’s land. As it always seems with polar arguments, neither side is adequate to fully explain all cases. And just like one size fits all Starter caps, they don’t actually always fit everyone.
Ethical issues
The inherent conflict between the Hip-pocratic Oath (which doesn’t apply to those who aren’t doctors, but the guidelines are respected goals and ethics for those in the health profession to abide by) and the profit motive is a sticking point in whether antidepressants actually work.
The first article of the oath (see sidebox) is perverted by the patent process. Pharm-aceuticals are patented, meaning that com-pany has exclusive rights, and no one can make or manufacture the same product till the patent expires. The patent on fluoxetine expired in 2001, 15 years after the drug was first approved for widespread human use. Until then, Eli Lilly had a monopoly on the production of this drug. The Fortune 500 company, which posted almost US$2 billion profit in 2006, is purposefully making profit off the misfortune of others, with dubious results.
This leads into the sixth article, which points out that we treat humans, not just the affliction, and therefore there is a need to take family and economic stability into account. New Zealand sufferers of depression are lucky: Pharmac subsidises $20.8 million a year, down from over $30 million in 2007, mainly due to new companies cashing in on the whole no-patent thing. So how can pharmaceutical companies reconcile making huge profits when their product has minimal positive effects and there are so many suffering people? Well that is a good question. The New York Magazine reported that 60 percent of Pfizer’s income in 2007 was a straight-out profit of US$12.9 billion, and the Centre for Public Integrity reports that pharmaceutical companies have spent an unprecedented amount of cash money on lobbying—well over US$800 million from 2000 to 2007.
Omelette
It should come as no surprise that there are still gaps in our health system. As McCoy said in Star Trek: The Voyage Home “My God, man. Drilling holes in his head isn’t the answer.”
The findings are mixed. Some people report they’re helped by antidepressants, some people don’t. Some doctors don’t prescribe, some do. Research points that one treatment alone shouldn’t be relied upon and that antidepressants should be used in combination with counselling, exercise and healthy eating. Removing the profit motive from health care and pharmaceuticals would also be a good stepping stone. Repeat business comes when there are no alternatives and there is little repeat business if you cure your target market.
The Hippocratic Oath says “prevention is preferable to cure”, and so the underlying causes should be rooted out and alleviated, rather than the safety net mentality that tells us a pill can fix everything.
Brain Soup
Serotonin
A neurotransmitter when used in your brain (80–90% of serotonin resides in your gut). It sits in the gaps between synapses and just hangs out.
Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors
These work on the basis that low levels of serotonin in your brain can lead to depression. They stop your brain form reabsorbing it so that it can be used time and time again. Currently the most widely prescribed antidepressants in the world.
Tricyclic antidepressants
These also block serotonin uptake as well as other neurotransmitters. First sold in the 1950s, TCAs have largely been superseeded by SSRIs. The main TCS still used in New Zealand is Amitriptyline.
Fluoxetine
New Zealand’s favourite antidepressant, these little green and purple pills are in the SSRI catagory. Originally developed in the late 70s, it hit the American market in 1986 with the trading name Prozac. It specifically blocks the re-uptake of serotonin and is the first point of call for most first-time depressed persons.
Citalopram
Created in 1989 it is gaining popularity as an alternative to Fluox. For many users the SSRI minor side effects don’t seem to
be an issue. It should not be used with St John’s wort.
Amitriptyline
A lesser used drug in New Zealand it still is prescribed regularly. Residing in the TCA family of antidepressants it is now primarily used for migraine relief. Unfortunately there can be serious side effects and there can be a potentially lethal overdose reaction to them.
Alcohol
It is a depressant. It will not help you get over depression. Although it lowers inhibitions and acts as a relaxant, it is addictive and has many more adverse effects than antidepressants. Can also have bad effects if you are taking proper antidepressants.
Kava
Not a prescribed medication for depression but has a relaxant effect which has been described similar to alcohol or valium. Kava is totally legal, non-addictive when used properly but, like all brain altering
substances, can have side effects. Give it a try!
Exercise
The easiest and cheapest way to treat depression, exercise can boost mood and produce endorphins and is a basic exercise in goal setting and motivation.
Jackson, i am so gay for you.
…which in itself implies that you have a vagina!
Bastards had me believing i was gay.NEWTOWN
NO ECHO
Tennish, working school
Light works
Wellington high school, the wealthy
Torn in torment, in prison.
You found him
Finger nails
Ginger lingers, Alpha male
PLEASE leave a key
NURSING science toxic
Book, concentrate on my job.
1 DECEMBER 2008
Became an official out patient, by shithead, Doctor Muir, who likes to argue, she even admitted that I am still manic depressive, although she could see no evidence of mania.
No shit Sherlock.
I was suicidal and depressed for over a year and you tried to make me top myself.
ORWELLIAN THOUGHT POLICE!
So many holes in her notes, such as delusions around past relationships, with staff.
LIAR, LIAR, LIAR!
She knows this to be the truth, but will not retract from notes.
POEM 11 DECEMBER 2008
AN ODE TO MY FAMILY
You tried to make me forget,
And you did not succeed
All written down, in thought form
-I rember you, you assholes
Your spite, your disdain
Your lies and your faults
And I WILL REMBER,
You bunch of DOLTS.
Monday 8 December
-Shopped Woolworths.
Easier {Freeks, not there}, today, early in the morning.
Neibour knocked on my door.
She has nice eyes.
DAIRY-, bought a power aid, {juice}
, Milk
Even though I have no fridge!
The Indians still hate me, even though, I have no idea; WHY?
POEM
The sun went away
I stopped smoking
Was ordered out of town, today
REASON, smokes from Indians, I bought
They are all CRAZY and AWFULL CUNTS,
They tell me anyway
His age is lowering
I went up
His tent was, blown away by strong winds
The skips, rubbish bins
Everywhere rubbish
On Mein Street
A slaughter, parahakeia
Cricket, Christchurch, Wanganui
The lion’s den
Looking at sport
Are they awake the sport players?
They look gay to me
Number, times, teams
In rugby
Well worth watching
WHY, would they sell cigarettes and chocolate fish?
Tomorrow
Combat action,
EIGHT in the morning,
Water bomb
Poetic licence
In Thorndon
Do as well
NOTE TO MYSELF
My body is hurting, especially my legs
-I went for a walk around Newtown, yesterday and my legs are suffering for IT
Actually, fucken sore-Trying to put on weight, too fast
JUST CANT BE DONE, WHEN AWAKE
SMOKING
Everywhere now
It’s looked on as seriously antisocial
Worse than alcoholics
THE VIDEO SHOP
VIDEO KID
The id, the ego, the unconscious
Programming, hypnotism
Taken for a walk
Australia!
Downloading, NOT
Video kid, get it from the shop
I’m 39, I feel 44
Will be the last download
I do for a while
The Video Shop
Video Kid.
DAIRY
On the positive side
{My sun, went away}
Working on wireless
And looking too, New Zealand history
Fuckers want me for an EGG, on Friday/Cant be assed and won’t do
KILLER BEES
including
BIN LINDIAN
WHY, do they bother to steal?
Shit socks
That’s WHY
Marine land, I hate you!
Napier closed down. YAY (porpus fish)
ENERGY CENTRE 2008
Magnolia, in hospital
Grounds grown, in thirty five
Three years ago
HAVE A MUSHROOM, GO SKINNY DIPPING
I WOULD RATHER BE? , THAN A WINDOW LICKER
Television, um-er
ER, doctor’s telly
Good telly
I think not.LIE
You my TV, TELEVISION
You lie to me and myself
I’m bored by you
Television
Charakaras
Bird bath, in the hospital
ALL
Hot, cold running water
Alarms going off
People injected,
Served, they call it
People freezing, hungry, smoking and messed up
My art room Teacher, whom I have shagged
Union, with fog
Union Hardware
This is how her mind works
Fog!
Note: Smoking is a prison.
Umbilical Cord
Free from the umbilical cord
She mentions Spinich
Out of the skip
Silver Beet, is better
YUCK!
I bought another JUICE, from a 7/11
Eating place, juice and smoking
Anti social, I hate it.
They eat from everyone, who buys from the juice, the garden is better.
DAIRY
12-12_2008
Rember
Pigeon, brown, vulture
On a corner
REMBER
Flamingos, in Tasmania
Stage coach
Go Wellington
? GO where?
National bank, Kiwi bank
Westpac
WHO will take me shopping?
I have no car.
Listen to your woman and you can’t go wrong
My intuition, my woman
My mirror
25-03-2009
Neibours under attack;
Not realising why
An apology needed
By several apologic persons
I saw him about a month ago
About a week to go
I saw him
Thank god
I am tired
SONG LYRIS
Germans, with twisted faces, tell me what their name is
Incasident, ingratitude
System matters
Marvell comics
The flash
The green Lantern
Superman, I’m them all
Spiderman I respect, with gratitude
Liars-Jim, the neibour
SYSTEM MUTA NT
Systemated
Stigmatised
Strategise
25-03-2009
Bets corner
M rent not payed.
A sunny winters, autumn day
The food robbers
The energy centre combined
I WAIT.
2503-2009
SOLD DOWN THE RIVER
Getting lost in an Irish mentality
Greeks who hate me, reasons unknown
WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE
People unknown
Everyone holds a grudge, myself included
People robbing robbers
Money launders alike
A place, lost inside me
No available money
I’m running on empty, no smokes for a day.
25-03-2009
SMOKING
The clock on the wall says 1.57
I make silent cries for her
A bored schoolgirl, who went to war because,
She was bored
THUS
Forcing me to fight; as well.
No more blame left in my heart
TOOLBOX
A new game starts
I have no cigarettes
RED wire;
A cold I have
ICU,
Addiction
POEM
AND IT RAINS
A sunny Wednesday
Anti inflammatory drugs, waiting to work
WORK AND INCOME
The war is over now,
Get an advocate (people resource centre)
They think I am stupid
They do not see the injuries and pain
They are stupid and judge from their own perspectives.
So an advocate I will get.
Someone at their level.
They do not understand me.
Because they are stupid
Oh the strain of being gifted
? A force field around Wellington to keep the smart in and the stupid out.
For today
Anyway
I’ve fought and one
Now I’m tired, sore
And facing repercussions
Courts, police
Trespasses, etcetera
Tired beyond belief
A NORTHERLEY RAGES AND I LIKE IT.
TITLE…………………………..
IF I avoid jail may live to shag another day
Footsteps banging on the roof
Laughter and pain
A difficult day for one
But worth it in the end
I still smoke
Enjoyment [ADDICTION], now
Pain I still endure
I’m sure it will lessen
It must
I have been here before;
27-03-09
My creativity is being destroyed by these drugs
I am tired and sore
Blisters on my feet
But I have food to eat (humour)
Piercing
Jangles
Necklace
Food
Cigarettes
(Ha-ha)
Motor head skitsophrenic,
Folowing me round
Newtown follows me
EVERYWHERE
My bones
My body
My spirit
MITROCONDRIA
Still STRONG
6-4-2009
Sitting in
Yet another waiting room
Dying again
Forty, I feel
Tired and bored
Cigarette scared
Too many coffees
Tired
I will turn this pen off now
Multitasking, foolish
The foolish
Fighting NICKOTINE
ADDICTION
Sleeping pills abound
________________________________________
Flintstones
________________________________________
I used to dress here exclusively
Took one second to see it
The Salvation Army
________________________________________
LONLEY 8-4-2009
My poetry, my shirt
My bag
My borrowed helmet
It scared her away
She thinks I stole it
The helmet you see
In my bag
I got for her
Borrowed from a
Neibour
Blind she is
Glasses she wears
A friend I am
I wish she could see.
Promotions emotions
Just a moment;
________________________________________
ACTIVE
Poem from the radio
The music has all changed
Two years with no music and I like it!
Techno, Hip Hop
Punk reggae
Drum and base
FUSION
A new modern thing
Improvements
Listening pleasure, my ears
________________________________________
Bisexual
Fitness, my body
Nearly broken
I exercised yesterday
Yoga, you see
I’m sore and tired
My feet blistered and swollen
Hurt Loam, freeing my from, my pain
Do I have time?
A nokia phone for me
A battle to be straight up
Then Bi
Body sore and weak
Keeps me safe, I heal.
Lotion motion, in
Slow motion
Emotion
Testing talisman
I change per Chance, knows,
SLOW MOTION.
________________________________________
10-12-2008
You patronize and lie
WHO SAID, I’m vegetarian anyway
Everything in balance and moderation
Asleep in the doorway.
!10/12/2008
My spirit could not enter, after I slept.
The door had been opened
Previously by me
LIARS!
CAN YOU READ IN BETWEEN THE LINES?
Empathy chagrin
Swedes with, no colour
11-12-2008
A close shave wasn’t it.
No smoking for starts
Good therapy painting
Chest
Rainbow
LIAR!
QUOAT: A hole has been drilled in your head “DOCTOR MUIR”
Cupcakes, I presume
Princess butterflies
LIES LIES LIES,
Show me the proof, in my notes not.
________________________________________
Puppeteers
No sun today
It rains today
________________________________________
8-4-2009
Best layed plans of men and mice
-A quote from a book
Too many I have read
It rains
Heather Nova
It plays
It rains
Court tomorrow again
My khaki shirt
To keep the rain off
While I meet my shrink
My bike I ride
HOME
13-4-2009
Smoking Smoking
Plastic Paul Mall
Irish Italian
Tamils and Shirlinkin
Military
Tamil Tigers
North east civilians
Smoking artists
A sunny day
Denim Shorts
So ninety nines
Smoking
Paul Mall
Smoking Easter Monday
Risen from the dead
Fly my Pretty’s
I smoke
Where is she?
The Clash [London Calling]
CAMPERVAN
Tickoteck
Fly my pretty’s
I want to see
An Irish phoenix Foundation
Shaun Scott, Sam Scott
I know
No
Irish I must be
Not
I am sorry Maori, blue heart
Beat away
Fly my pretty’s
I will see.
________________________________________
DRUGS ARE BAD
The moron
Schizophrenic
Arguing, Angry
Angry, no Angry
Can’t see
Psychology
Borying, Angry
Hates herself, why?
Am beginning to pity her
Can’t wake her up, she
Is too drugged
Schizophrenic, druggy
13-4-2009
Waiting bored
Eating again
My printer
My
Free View
Found
Never free
ALL Expansive
Exercise must, Gym I want
A swim or surf
No car
No money
All my stuff
A wetsuit I have
Weat-Bix, I eat
Old Old Newtown
The people all wait
Mixed races, mixed castes
Indian, Samoans, Italians, Indonesians, Singaporeans
Numbers abound
New World
SUPERMARKET
Banned trespassed, I must
Woolworths I prefer
KIlbernie-a cold place
Food tastes nicer
A skate board park
On Radio Active
A project for the kids
I’m bored today
Where is she?
________________________________________
You are inflexible
You are me
My body, I repair
My brain already repaired
My children are where?
A genius I was
Hospital clowns
Hypnotising us all
Now-late before
A manic Depressive
Polar bears
All die at 2200
A lie
Media condrums
Or-Wellian thought police
Are ice to the warm
My hair is too short
Grow it I will
________________________________________
My
She is 32
19 inside
6 Years difference
Church I did
Catholic in town
Five minutes I lasted
Punk I looked
Hippy I am
Guitar, I want
My clothes all wrong
A green pink panther cougar
Blues
A ware-wolf I am
I hide in disguise
The things we do
A coke I Drink
The red gurian, not the brown
A demon coke
The things we do
A point I make
For the stupid people
Brands, food drinks and clothes
Adam and Eve were naked
The tree of life is a lie
A demon coke
Water I drink
________________________________________
WAI MATE
YOU/WE
Cannot open the door
Good luck bitch
Oops Mate, she said
Riding a horse did
Six months and then I’ll see
Them again
REBELION
Court in six weeks
I must be good till then
Now!
My keys
My wallet, I have lost
Birth certificate, I have
On the beach
No way to get there,
Except I walk
Six weeks of walking
Six weeks of smoking
On the beach I must
Six weeks I wait
June I wait
Good luck, bitch mate
I agree with Simon Young
MIND BLANK BABY!!!
Nice tackle Wood.
Antidepressents cause brain damage .
Misinformation protecting the profiting pharmaceutical Corporations has been provided to consumers.
Depression is not caused by the brains inability to produce neurotransmiters, the brain is a frickin pharm lab!!
So don’t believe the hype!